| well i know long time no talk on....
well not really talk en shet it's more like blog...
i know last year...i don't really get a kick out of this shet anymore....
thinking of like shutting it down cuz i guess it just get's boring...
yah oh just want to tell everyone out there that know me...
your all invited to my graduation it's on a monday....
June 6, 2005...yup yup 4:00 pm....
i would really look forward to seeing you there just tell me your there
and if i don't see you i'm sorry and
if i don't have timeto talk to you i'm am really sorry it's going to be a busy night....
well yeah i just notice my last blog was about some guy....
well not really about a guy but yeah....
oh and me and josh are just friends now...
i really don't find him heart breaking anymore...
it's ridiculous when you cry over someone....
well anyways it's it's kind of time for me to bail so shoot....
talk to ya'll later...bye much love
love always,
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| Damn....yes people i know i haven't been updating lately....sorry....well just wanted to say i changed my song...so that my goodies song....its not for josh....but still fuck him.....uhm yeah and for that one guy here's the picture...kay uhm what else....talk to ya'll later sorry for the delay
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THAT'S IT!!!
NO MORE JOSH AND RAELYN....
i tried to fucken save it...didn't work...so you know what...Josh this song is for you, your hurting me so much.. I loved you, and all i get in return is what...
FUCKING NOTHING
...i dealt with it for a year and five months...i wanted to be with you and all of it goes down the fucken drain...i still love you but you know what. i don't want to love you anymore..your hurting me..thinking about you its just tearing me up inside i tried so hard, my biggest fear was loosing you...and now that your not going to be in my life...just because you barely saw me, barely talk to me...we could have worked things out...but i guess you don't...you were to lazy to try...but i learned something from you tho...don't fall for the person you think your going to spend your life with...don't fall for just anyone that says i love you...cuz shit like that is just filling up your head with fucking non-sense and your floating in the clouds...and when you realize it...
you fall so fucken hard...You maybe my first love...and it's going to be hell getting over you...but like you said you had to move on...THAT'S WHAT I'M GONNA DO
I'M MOVING ON JOSH WITHOUT YOU
if you want to come back, come back, i might try to accept you in my life...but i want you to know something.i hated it when you would talk about your ex's but you know what i loved you so much i bit my lip and held it all in...never once did i ever talk about my past relationships...so you know what fuck you..you make me feel like shit.. and i'm sick of it..i'm sick of you putting all this shit on me...everytime we argue...you make me take the blame so you know what i hate you!!! i fucken hate everything about you...i may talk to you but deeply you hurt me so bad that i could possibly never forgive you...you ask me to forgive you...put yourself in my shoes josh...you would know how i felt...you say i can't hack what you had in the past try me josh..you can't hack what
YOU FUCKING PUT ME THROUGH
you didn't make it any easier on me... | |
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| i really don't want josh and i's relationship to end...it's been too long...i love him too much it's going to kill me...so if anyone has any advice please help me out | |
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| Hey everyone long time no check up on dis xanga en shit...just been busy with school en stuff like that crap...oh man this is my last year i can't believe...shet that i actually made it this far...some people can't even last they drop out...oh well.. oh man this year i have this guy not saying his name, but like i had this major crush on him in third grade..and i have him in my class. oh man it's like i'm a stalker hahaha. that is so cool...not really feel pathetic about it..but my schedule is pretty cool.. 1st. Consumers math (don't worry it's money management not basic..i'm not stupid) 2nd. Chamorro (cuz i failed..yes i'm stupid..lol) 3rd. Marine Biology (I need a science credit to graduate. 4th. Computer literacy (cool huh i can make a website and won't have to rely on this sad sausage) 5th & 6th. Auto Cad (not automotive..it's architecting, and engineering... this is what i like) well that's my schedule for ya...so bye for now | |
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